Friday, December 12, 2014

new shades


I heard about the fire in DTLA a little later than I'd have liked. I was up that night and were my view not obscured from the freeway overpass that divides my neighborhood, the light from the fire would have certainly reached my window from across the river, notifying me. I often regret missing a fun photo opportunity, but the sting is especially acute when I learn that I was so close by to one, unawares, and likely very bored at the time. Due to the time that I learned of it and work constrictions I didn't get to make it to the scene until about thirty hours after the incident, at which point I was deterred by security, pigs, and FDLA at all angles. I was far too late and they were letting no one near the destruction. The best I could muster was climbing to the top of an adjacent parking garage and snapping a couple of photos, from a distance, of the two derelict stairwells that remained standing after the blaze.

Before riding my bike downtown I'd left my hotel room (SRO) in sort of a headache-y daze. I'm a notable wimp when it comes to bright light. Having accidentally crushed my sunglasses in my backpack the night before, I was forced to walk two grueling blocks in the day sun to Sun (ha) Market, a bodega run by an old Chinese couple near my place. Dusting off a very stylish pair of shades from a neglected rack near their front counter ($4.00!!), I felt satisfied with my purchase as I left. Immediately as I exited the market, a few feet to my right a prostitute who I see around sometimes hollered some unintelligible gobbledegook at her pimp or john or maybe a random stranger. He responded with a hard backhand across her mouth. The hysterics temporarily abated as I passed, and on my way to retrieve my bicycle I found myself pondering the levels of abuse people will tolerate in their own lives. Not just on the receiving end, but the willingness to participate in the exchange of abuses as well. Surely it must damage the psyche or the soul to just hit a woman on the street in broad daylight. I can't imagine what would incense me enough to make that leap. Only now though, a few days after witnessing those people in front of the market am I feeling sorry for them. I've read that lack of immediate compassion for others is a sign of depression, but I dunno, I don't feel sad. Maybe I'm just worn down, unsure what matters anymore. I bet they were arguing about money.

Anyway. My new shades look great.

Monday, December 1, 2014

i wrote a poem for you wanna hear it

EXCERPTED FROM THE NEW YORK POST

THEY TOOK HIS BRAIN

and used it for what one would think,
the obvious science experiments
and what have you (doctors do)
and used it for the great good of
neurological study, unquestionable moral
keystones - well there was still
exploration of the personal psyche,
an act of course, of course,
that is at unsteady moral altitude
for what third party should read you?

THEY TOOK HIS BRAIN
they used it to clean up the kitchen
for the brain is man’s most natural,
a sopping sponge of all things,
and being in the kitchen already
it was then fried in a pan
and with a wavering laugh
a nervous hand took it up
and took to shaking (jitters!
so soft to tacit touch!) and now
to take a funny lick!
if just to say we did it
yuk yuk yuk

THEY TOOK HIS BRAIN
and passed it around and around
all oohs and ahhs, all gees and gaws
enthusiastic and possessive
they began pinning awards to it
(first place! the best brain ever!)
but sin, sin, sin, sin, sin, sin, sin
was was it was what it was,
it was pride, and with that
they paraded around town
an illicit display of dominance
(you know, how “they” like to do)
eesh


THEY TOOK HIS BRAIN
and fondled it mischievously
painted it to appear disembodied
(no shit right?) like an ultimate sex organ
or a work of conceptual art
totally unsatisfying, obviously
the whole experience, ruined
‘cause you can’t have his
and then go and make it yours
once you’ve snipped away
with every god damned wire
so say it out loud with me
“dead. is. dead.”
ain’t it true?

THEY TOOK HIS BRAIN

who, him?
no, no the vacant
mule on the slab
oh, him?
oh gosh come off it
punt it across the field
someday everyone dines
with the devil’s prized pigs